migraine awareness

Migraine Awareness Month Blogging Challenge #21: "Shaking in My Boot."

What’s your biggest Migraine related fear? How do you cope with it?

That the pain will never end and it will kill me.  Or more likely it will cause me to kill myself, but maybe it will be a heartattack, or a stroke or a seizure.  But the never ending pain scares me because that makes me fear I will get to that mental place where I will want to kill myself again.

Coping with it is difficult because every day I cope with all this pain through work and unsympathetic doctors and surviving.  How I don’t know.  I manage.  Then comes along a five to seven day migrain hell where the pain does not stop, I can’t sleep  and I’m desperate,  At those times I wish I din’t have to work, but I know my doctor, neuro and insurance companies have given me no options.  I wish I had some options, but I don’t know how to achieve them.  I’m desperate for relelief but know the ER will not provide it.  I don’t know how I’m going to manage to function for the next few days at work let alone decades.  That is were coping disinigrates and where your ability to reason and think clearly shut off.  That is why I’m afraid of it. 
I hope my doctors will come up with a better treatmet in freaking October when I see the new neuro.  Until then I’ll make do.

National Migraine Awareness Month is initiated by the National Headache Foundation. The Blogger’s Challenge is initiated by www.FightingHeadacheDisorders.com.


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