What’s a day that you wish you could have used a pain free pass (either in the future or the past)? How would being pain or worry free impact that day?
My days beings so full of pain have a ‘sameness’ to them that a hermit gets when they are not able to do much other than what is essential and necessary. So no day sticks out in my mind except holidays. Every holiday I would have Loved to have a pain free pass… because I would have been able to Do some of the things I wanted to do but could not, or do more things. Instead, I have to really pace myself and when we go places I can never walk far, or for long and it has to be at my pace. We can never do many things, because ‘too much to handle’ comes to mind.
I, in fact, have a short two day stay in the mountains coming up real soon. And I wanted to go on a guided tour of the ice caves. A three-hour trip, two-hour walk. My spouse just gave me this look, shook his head and said “Yeah, no, you can’t walk for two hours on a tour like that”
And I had to acknowledge he was right. It would not be at my pace for one, not in a group. There would be no rest if needed either. And it would not be a stroll on flat ground. And I have had this back thing in my lumbar spine that can flare up rather quickly from walking these days which would really hurt really fast and be very embarrassing to be stuck there… worse than the fact FM can get worse as you go until you are walking very slowly which would also be embarrassing.
But it looks so absolutely stunning. And I would love to do it. So if I could be entirely pain-free… I would do it in a heartbeat… and then after I would go on this trail I heard about that goes up to the glaciers and is supposed to be awesome, but is not an amateur trail and is a 4km hike… doing both in one day? Not even one would be possible. But I would if I could.
You know if I were pain-free I would totally be into some of those hiking trails. I really love being in nature. And seeing the specatulaur scenery. Sadly, I cannot do it. So I do little local things. Things we can drive to.