Just another day in the life. But I feel ranty. It has been extremely painful these last three days. Waking up with migraines. Going to bed with them.
It is not fun when we hit that migraine streak. Not when you have chronic migraines. It means… you are not going to be able to treat the pain in there. I got a migraine and they are daily so this is not a surprise. It was an intense one so I did take a T3 that night to help me sleep. I actually missed my window of opportunity there. The painkiller did slightly dull the pain but not really well and not in enough time for me to fall asleep so the pain got back to where it was… and I couldn’t fall asleep. So I didn’t. And the pain got worse. And worse. So I got up in a fit of frustration at 7am with a level 9 migraine. This was yesterday. And it kept on at that. I did get some sleep in there. A fitful in and out sort of sleep. But something. The pain remained up there. My spouse came home with some lovely triptans. I thought it would be a lost cause given it was day 2… but it actually really aborted quite well for hours. Then came back at a level 7… then crept up to an 8.
However, I slept quite well last night. Thought I would wake up fine. Nope. Woke up with a migraine. Full on 8. All day. Can’t take a bloody thing for it of course. Not a damn thing at this point. And have luck sleeping as well. And this beast is very painful. It is not the 9 intensity but because I spent so much time in the 9 yesterday I have some very intense neck and jaw pain and sharp jabbing pain in the back of my skull.
I don’t generally wake up with migraines. Not my norm. The lack of sleep one made sense given I could not sleep with the intensity of the previous one. But… the intensity. And the waking up with migraines repeatedly this month…. is likely due to the depo shot just failing all bloody month and me being in some hormonal hell. Which tends to lead to migraine streaks without end. The difference being it isn’t full one hormonal migraines and therefore triptans are working but triptans are not fun with the side effects. I don’t enjoy resorting to them above what I prefer because the migraine is at a 9 instead of an 8. Now the distinction may seem small… but a 9 is screaming agony that literally incapacitates me and I cannot function on a basic level. It must be treated. On some level even if it is just dulling it down a bit. An 8 is extremely bad and I certainly have issues with my ability to function on several levels but at least I don’t freak my spouse out by my level of incapacitation and so forth. And when you have menstrual migraines like I got without the depo I could get streaks of 9’s such that I would not be able to sleep… and then on day three end up in the ER solely from desperation… as in the pain was maddening. And then they would do nothing. It was horrific. The fact the depo isn’t working and I am getting really high-intensity migraines from morning to night that I can’t treat… not in a hormonal window but all month is disturbing to me in the extreme. At least I could predict them before. Now it is driving me mad. And I’m so tired of them. Too much pain. Today has been just draining from just the constant pain, after all the pain from yesterday (aside from the few hours gap).
Anyway, nothing new to this. I mean untreated migraines. It is a fact of life. I would like to have that gap in the morning again here once the depo kicks back in to normal and my migraines go back to normal without this random hormonal flux. And the intensity… man I would like a break on that. But tomorrow… yet another non-treated day. Got to give myself a nice break after triptan uses these days. Besides I had to use two on that brutal 9… so sort of makes me screwed.