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#Functional

I know with chronic pain we are expected to be functional with pain. I remember in the pain 101 class he had talked about how we should not stop living our lives. To a point that is true. We should not stop socializing. Being with people. Doing things we enjoy. Being in the world.

Functional.Put on the mask.Smile.Blend in.But different under the skin.Writhing, seething, beat of pain within.Adjust the mask.Smile.Functional.

But to a point. To a point.

Beyond that point there is something horrifying in that word functional. It says I have to repress all this pain, smile and try to just push through it while trying to work. It is a cruelty. It is a torment. For all the good things there are about work. For all the enjoyment I take from from doing it, I cannot seem to get past the cruelty of having to try and function under the increased intensity of pain.

I think the primary reason is is that because it exceeds my pain tolerance. So I lose my capacity to live other aspects of my life. To socialize. Being with people. Doing things I enjoyed. Being in the world. It all shrinks to getting through the pain. That seems wrong to me. So very wrong.

I think that means I am not functional at all. Generally when I go on like this I prove it too. Because you can’t go on exceeding your pain limits for long. It gets to you. You crash and burn. https://w.atcontent.com/-/2GIZPCkYmRv/nikki.albert/6SlZpvNzNpc.text/Panel/Autocheck

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