In many ways, reality and I are not well suited for each other. This reality is too loud, too bright, too full of odors… and my brain loathes it in its entirety. It grates on my oversensitive nerves and spikes up migraine after migraine after migraine.
And you think maybe if you just avoided stress. Took it a little easier. But this world does not allow that. You must be absorbed into its fast-paced society or you are a liability. But I cannot keep up and I just get worse and sicker.
It makes me crave silence and solitude. Something to soothe my cracked soul. I need a deprivation chamber to soak myself into every day just to give my brain a rest.
It is such a contradiction. I want to go a play with the other children, but I cannot handle their games. I need to retreat and hide to feel better. If you play, you pay and pay and pay.