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The big 40 birthday

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I celebrated my 40th birthday on the 28th. That is now 20 years of migraines to date. But it went extremely well. Migraines have responded well to botox and this Oska Pulse device I am using. So low intensity and some migraine free days in there. I am also making sure to use magnesium and take B vitamins. And keeping myself hydrated.

So I celebrated on Thursday by going out with a few friends to Karaoke. I don’t sing but I support my friends. No migraine showed up after indulging in 6 beers. Which exceeded my usual limit of 3. So double. I only socially drink and rarely at that, so I have a low tolerance for alcohol so I was mighty tipsy.  But I quite enjoyed myself.

I went book shopping with my mom (the ultimate gift for me). Clothes shopping with my spouse. Due to my recent weight loss, I was looking for some jeans that actually fit me so I can give away some old jeans to charity. Instead of wearing clothes that are hanging off of me. Then my mom, my step-father, and my spouse went out to dinner. I had a low-intensity migraine but it never became much of anything, just a lot of light sensitivity made me wear my migraine specs.

It was a really good few days, to be honest. I really enjoyed myself.

Flipping into a new decade always makes you ponder things. I don’t mentally feel forty so I did skip the mid-life crisis (mid-life if I live to 80 that is). But it does mark 20 years of migraines and 20 years of fibromyalgia. That does make me think of treatment progression. Treatment when I was younger compared to now. Frustrations with coping when I had no effective treatment at all and the hopelessness of that to some modest treatment, routines at home and some acceptance in myself. It dramatically affects how you cope and live your life. Not to mention mood. When your pain isn’t managed at all, mood tends to falter. When you have no hope of any treatment, mood also falters.  So that needs to be attended to as much as the pain. It complicates things a great deal. Takes time to sort out. How we perceive pain and our lives with it changes over time as well. And our coping strategies are constantly adapting and growing. As is our maintenance routines. I have a pretty solid routine now, but in the beginning… had no concept of what would help, what wouldn’t help and what to do. And absolutely, fundamentally no guidance in the area either. Although, I, unlike some people, do have a wonderful supportive mother who has recommended things for me to try when I was younger and guided me a great deal in this journey. And I needed that. Someone who had my back.

Another thing I pondered was the price of chronic pain. Something people often do not think about when they see someone in chronic pain. They, obviously, would assume it sucks but the impact it has on someone’s life is pretty extreme. While you are trying to find treatment, messing around with treatment, trying new treatments… things suffer. Socialization, financial stability, friendships, relationships. The impact can explode all over the life you had. And trying to stabilize that can take years.

It isn’t an easy life by any means. But it is the life we have, isn’t it? And we have to live it the best that we can.

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