Let it be

Chronic illness, chronic pain let it be

One of the hardest things about having a chronic illness is all the worrying about things I have absolutely no control over.

Let it be.

And all the things I should be or could be doing that I feel guilty about.

Let it be.

I feel like I am letting my family down. That I am nothing more than a burden.

Let it be.

I get so tired of these thoughts sometimes. And I have to just let it be. It is what it is. I have no control over being chronically ill. No control over what my insurance company says about me being chronically ill or their approval for my application. I worry about it endlessly but I have no power to control that. I have to drop the thoughts and just let it be. Do what is in my power and control.

Sometimes I have acceptance.

And sometimes I don’t and I have to give myself a break.

When I am plagued with the guilt and the worry the best thing for me is distraction. Do something I enjoy. Rest. Or read. Consciously set aside the thought. Just drop it. And let it be.

I can’t control much. I certainly cannot control the pain. All I can have a modest about on control over is how I react to the pain. I can think about my reactions and choose to react a different way. And I can cope with the reactions I cannot avoid. The sense of guilt isn’t a reaction I like, but I can’t avoid it. So I have to re-frame it. I’m not guilty of being ill. There is no shame in it. So I shouldn’t be guilty over x, y, and Z. And to drop that guilty though, because it gets me nowhere. Just drop it. As soon as I have it I tell myself to Stop thinking that way.

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9 comments

  1. Hey there, as a chronic control freak of 46 yrs, letting go has been my biggest challenge but also the biggest help. Keep up with the positive thoughts x

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