So I have been over the last week doing some Fall cleaning. The sort of cleaning that is clearing clutter before winter and getting organized. With chronic illness though I have to pace. And sometimes I fail. We sometimes need to up our pacing game.
I have accomplished:
- Cleaning out the spare room closet
- Cleaning my office
- Going through my files and the three other piles of documents and papers to shred.
- Cleaned the medicine shelf we have in the bathroom.
And I felt emotionally:
Awesome. I felt productive. And those areas have not been touched for some time so I feel acomplished that I tackled them. It made me feel good. Getting some semblance of order in there.
And then there is this:
Every day I did one of these tasks caused massive amounts fo vertigo, needing my case, and a lot of rest. And it exaughsted me. I didn’t do much each day but the cost and consequence was high. And then today I did nothing because the vertigo is still severely flared up. Needed the cane again and couldn’t do a think all day. A day of rest. And feeling so miserbale with all that whirling and falling sensations. I should mention I took my medication… but this activities surpassed it so it was severe vertigo With the medication
I thought I Was pacing. But I forget pacing for chronic pain is different than pacing for vestibular symptoms. It is a lot more pacing. It is really one thing a day and rest.
I guess we have to test our limits. I have been trying to find things to do to keep busy because I am trying to quit smoking. Busy makes me crave less. But the price, man, I can’t handle those severe symptoms like that for the rest of the day. It makes me so miserable.
So… slow and steady. Just a little, teeny bit, of activity… and rest.
You know pacing is easier when it is a good day than a bad day I find:
To complicate matters, I’m much better at pacing when I’m at my best, as opposed to when I’m at my worst. This means that when I’m feeling intensely sick or in pain, I tend to ignore pacing and overdo things which, of course, only exacerbates my symptoms. Why in the world would I do this? Because doing things distracts me from my symptoms. In other words, activity keeps me from tuning in to how my body feels. Of course, this always backfires. The time comes when my body imposes itself on the situation and tells me in no uncertain terms: “That is enough for now.” Then, when I do give in and lie down to rest, I have to deal with feeling worse due to all that extra activity. When will I learn? Psychology Today
These are the tips found on Psychology Today
- Alternating activity with rest ( like this one, it is pretty necessary for me at this point)
- Slowing down when performing tasks (it should take us longer to accomplish anything and that is cool)
- Follow the 50% rule. Decide what you can actually comfortably do… and half that (I have never tried this, but it sounds like something I Need to do)