Chronic illness comes with fatigue more often than not. And we don’t feel well with various symptoms. We are tired. We are sick. It is easy to get into a slump mentally and emotionally. And then the motivation to do anything at all equally slumps.
I am in that slump right now. I am exhausted. I am so fatigued I just have to drag myself through the day wearing a lead blanket, it seems. Often to the couch to rest. So much effort is required to do things. Even small things. And this saps my motivation to try to do things.
Yet I know not doing things leads to a lot more of not doing things. And then you just feel more of a mental and emotional slump. And it gets harder to get out of. Motivation can be stimulated by doing things even when we do not want to. But, damn, that is a hard one when we completely lack it.
On the other hand, I know sometimes we need a lot of rest to recover. And I have severe limitations to work with.
So motivation slumps occur:
- When fatigue is excessive
- When we have to rest a lot
- When we are in too much pain
- When we feel very ill due to symptoms
- When we are so tired everything takes too much effort
- And our limitations are severe due to illness
- When it feels like everything is just too much
And we have to balance recovery with doing the things we are capable of doing. Which is tricky. Not to mention when motivation slumps we often have a perception our limitations are greater than they are, so we can try to nudge them a bit. But wanting to do that is extremely hard when you feel like crap.
I wrote about this in the past Self-care: when you are in a funk
And those are still the things I do to get out of this motivationless goo. There are I am sure, many ways to combat it. Whatever works.
What I am attempting to get out of my slump this time
I had a plan to exercise today because it can boost me mentally and sometimes get me out of that funk. It is also a goal I have to do so so I can be ready for my vestibular rehabilitation… need to be able to physically do things and after a year of inactivity, well, fibro pain is flaring. So a little modest exercise goes a long way.
I woke today with a wicked migraine from the get-go. Severe pain. So I didn’t think I’d attain my goal. But I took a triptan even though this is not the usual day for my triptan intake which I space the two pills during the week. I just had such a severe one I needed it. And migraine went away.
So later after the slump of the triptan began to wear off and I had a nap, I exercised for 18 minutes. And I am now feeling that. And will likely tomorrow as well. Which is why I exercise, when I did, every two days. But it also triggered the migraine again, to a lesser extent, thankfully. But not appreciated nonetheless. Also makes it hard to walk balance wise for some time after, which isn’t great for vestibular symptoms.
Nevertheless, it is a start. Exercising will ease the pain of inactivity from the fibromyalgia, while also causing pain, but it balances out. And it will give me a mental boost. And hopefully, spur some more motivation to get through this relentless fatigue. And then maybe I will feel inspired to do other things. Or maybe not. I might need more rest still than anything else. But a bit of movement a day when not working is not a bad thing.
If it leads to just a little more energy I would appreciate that a lot. I am also going to try my Rhodiola for the fatigue and capacity to exercise more. It has helped in the past and it might help now.
Update: I managed to exercise again today for 21 minutes. So maybe I can do around this every day, aside from bad days, of course.