So I had taken off my slow release tramadol a while back now. And it sucks.
I have been in so much pain lately and I have no idea if this is what fibromyalgia feels like without pain management or it is that possibility that I have MS (Still not confirmed) that is causing the extra pain.
I hurt all over. Bottom of feet pain, knee pain, hip pain, back pain, shoulder pain, elbow pain, wrist and hand pain, and brutal ribcage pain.
What this means functionally is that:
- I cannot exercise. At all.
- I have a difficult time getting upstairs
- Walking is painful
- Laying down is painful
- Sleeping is very difficult so I have not been getting a night of good sleep for some time now
And it frustrates me
Since that neurological assessment the insurance company ordered me to do and his recommendation I go off my painkiller my doctor has not been helping with pain management. And this hurts a fuckton. I need something to tolerate it. And if she will not help me then I am going to explore my options with cannabis that is legal here in Canada. I ordered the best strains for pain and I am giving it a go.
The opiate crisis
The opiate epidemic punishes chronic pain patients. Period. I doubt it even helps with addiction since most people with an opiate addiction use illegal products. And certainly to prevent addiction a mild injury doesn’t need an opiate. But those of use with constant relentless pain have few options. And when you take away our opiate medication… down goes functionality… down goes quality of life. It is horrific to punish us for a problem we have no ownership of. Plain and simple.
So if I were working and not disabled… I sure as hell wouldn’t be able to work from the pain alone. And I highly doubt I could use pot and also work. That just wouldn’t work.
It is a real dick move to not help someone manage their pain. A real dick move. I am going to have to call the pain clinic and ask them what the hell I am supposed to do now. Meditate on the pain? Not sleep forever? Beats me. But until then I am trying cannabis and have a post I will be writing soon post my results of this exploration which may help you in your choices if it is legal where you are.