Prompts for May
This month of May is a very high awareness month. Here are some of them:
I tend to focus on Fibromyalgia and Mental Health month since they impact me the most. However EDS since I have Joint Hypermobility syndrome and issue with that is also one I am interested in. And I will be posting images and blogging about them this month.
I think lately living in the moment does me better than planning or even thinking about the future just because I am too sick to do much these days. But I ponder and dream and speculate on things I might do in the future that I could conceivably do if I improve just a little bit… and it makes me wonder and hope and think. That time is not now though but I do wonder if in this time of rest and recover if there are things I can do, slowly, over time, that might prepare me for such a future I may foresee. And that I am thinking on. I have very little usable hours in a day so it is tricky but over time, and slowly, maybe.
Is the name of the game lately. My boyfriend was laid off, after he just found a job, after being laid off for some time. But now there are no jobs to even speak of. It is going to be hard economically around her for us. That is a constant stressor and I have been struggling to try and find ways to reduce the cost of everything. But eventually you cannot reduce any more than you have and you are stuck in a spot of making less than your actual bills. Bit of a pickle. Bit of a tricky pickle. That a whole lot of us find ourselves in now.
What I didn’t like is how the entire world realized, hey, we can all work from home. But… when disabled people asked for the exact same accommodation in Most cases it was Impossible. Not so impossible is it. So I do hope after this is all done that accommodation remains in place for those that need it. I do wonder though. Companies seem to resist accommodation.
If I lived alone this pandemic would be a lot harder on me. I am unable to drive. It would be harder for me to get out and about and risky to my health to do so. And if I went to go shopping on the day I get my disability money only to find hoarders basically ran through and took most of the things I needed… I’d have to go without. And that is a level of inconsideration I do not like. The stores around here decided to do the first hour of the day for seniors and disabled for this reason. So they could shop with less risk and be able to get the things they need. And that was a wonderful and thoughtful idea.
It is weird how isolation impacted me. I had a bit of a mental slump. Isolation and depression do not get along and the little socialization I was capable of doing before the pandemic meant a whole lot to me and did a whole lot more for my mental and emotional well-being. Without it I have to really watch my mental health a lot more. It wasn’t a huge slump because I am on my depression med but a slump that certainly was noticeable and a risk factor.
I find maintaining my routines of my hobbies to be soothing mentally. Every day I do a little bit of something I enjoy to relax me. Reading, writing, my creative writing, drawing, blogging. Something. And I just stick to those and it helps with my anxiety about all the uncertainty and it helps with the isolation. A it helps with pain management and mood management. Creativity soothes me in many ways. I think I need it in my pain management strategy and for mood management. Also lately with the vertigo it is something I can Do to some limited extend and that makes me extremely happy it was taken from me like so many other things I find so difficult (like reading is now). So in these times of extra super duper stress I let all that emotional turmoil out in my creative outlets.