Lost Day, self-care, and high pain

Today was a lost day. Days consumed by pain where functionality is lost and nothing gets done. Just a wasted day it seems to me. And I often wonder how many days get lost to the pain. Better not to ever have that question answered really. It is our days of self-care. But today I … Continue reading Lost Day, self-care, and high pain

Getting through the high intensity pain flares

The crowded me out of the brain. Making no room for anything else. Distraction was impossible. You feel almost frantic with the pain but must be still. What do you do? To get through it when you have no distraction? I ask me this as I am really in the depths of a 9 level … Continue reading Getting through the high intensity pain flares

The slippery slope of high pain and depression at night

I was talking about triggers with my psychologist in regards to depression. He said he pretty much knew what mine were. And I said good thing someone knows. But, in fact, some were pretty clear. Two massively big ones: Pain and Over-thinking. And how it creates the perfect storm. How both of my suicide attempts … Continue reading The slippery slope of high pain and depression at night