I have been reviewing old posts to add featured pictures to them and do some editing and I have learned a few things about myself along the way. While I am boldly going where cures fear to tread, I seem to be traveling in a bit of a circle here. Round and round we go, … Continue reading Things I learned from myself
So I am on a leave right now until this vestibular migraine, or whatever it is, sorts itself out. I hope the neuro can figure out what it is. Or it ends on its own soon. I am aiming end of month, and I hope my brain concurs with that plan. Today was … Continue reading Must be nice not to work
There is this lack of dependability and reliability that comes with being incapable of working. You prove it by trying and failing. Sometimes over and over again as I did. And failing and destroying your self-worth while you are at it. So you have to understand you can't do it. And you will the void … Continue reading Lack of reliability and disability
I know I have a self-worth problem. It developed over time from the guilt of being in pain, missing work and being told I should feel guilty about it. Started to feel pretty worthless. Then my functionality began to suffer. Too much pain once migraines become daily with the fibromyalgia in there. Even though I … Continue reading A tale of doubt
I'm at a point where I am unable to fathom what to do with my insurance company. Clearly, I am chronically ill. Clearly, I was on long term for it. I returned to work and it didn't work. I went down to part-time, it didn't work. My doctor and psychologist wanted me back on long-term. … Continue reading Eternal frustration with Insurance
I cannot even grasp the meaning of functional anymore. It is beyond me. I am in agony right now as I write this. Too much pain to sleep and have been immobile all day. Unable to function. Unable to do anything because of the pain and the auras. Is that the line I wonder? That … Continue reading The disability line: What the hell is functional?