Migraines are the kind of disease people like to discount. It is just a headache, they think. It is just a once a year deal, they think. So when you are chronic and a lot different for you and certainly a migraine is a lot more than a headache, you are still discounted. You can … Continue reading Wednesday Wonderings: blurred lines
The things people say just make me wonder sometimes. And irk me a little bit. Not enough to say anything because I'm a mellow and easy-going person that isn't likely to comment on it unless it is to have an intellectual conversation about it. Which is why I am going to bring it up. … Continue reading Am I brave? Am I strong?
I am in pain. I don't need to validate that pain to anyone. I cope with chronic illness and pain in many ways. I don't need anyone's approval of my methods. All I need to do is live the best chronic illness life that I can. I don't want to fear life for fear of … Continue reading I don’t need approval for my pain
I am having a really hard time doing things that are important. It is important so I need to be functional. So I say I will get it done tomorrow for sure. Tomorrow comes and I am in a mind-numbing about of pain. And I am like, clearly I cannot do it now because I … Continue reading The perfect moment
I have said, often, repeatedly, that I can't think through a migraine. One assumes it is the pain level. Or is it the migraine itself? Well, guess what they did a study on that. How thinking is impacted by a migraine. And we are right... we are dumified by a migraine. Or to put it … Continue reading Migraine: Dumbified; a study
One of those darkest thoughts I have in high pain is this concept of 'no end to the pain'. Of forever. The chronic nature of chronic pain. I magnify that moment of pain and extrapolate it into the future. I think about how difficult it was to cope with all the years, decades, of chronic … Continue reading Pain infinity spiral